W.A.P I LOVE YOU F.P - All Above My Head

I have nothing to give you, I have nothing to do with you anymore.

That’s, what I want to say.

If I have to lie, then I would lie to you.

Because I know you know the truth.

The past we pass, the stories that buried deep down,

The trace of your dried tears, already gone, so that I don’t need to stay.

That’s, what I want to tell.

If I have to leave, then I would leave you.

Because you know I won’t be far, and no matter where you are, I’ll come back to you.

Keep holding up my will to touch you, just because the bond that we hate so much.

That’s, what I wanna do.

If I have to go, then I would go to you.

And we need not any explanation.

I’m not abandoning you, not in any way. Not leaving you, not in any move.

If I have to die, no, I won’t die for you.

Because you worth all my life.

I don’t want to leave you like this, but this the only way to save you.

Because I want to have you.

If I have to cry, then I’ll only smile,

Because with you, my tears belong to smile.

10.10.2016

Without Any exPlanation of Fall aPart

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Apa gunanya aku datang jika kamu tak disana?

Apa maknanya aku kesana, jika kau tak menoleh?

Apa maksudnya kau mengundangku jika tak menerimaku?

Untuk apa aku merindu jika hanya buat sendu?

Untuk apa aku mencinta jika kau hanya beri aku luka?

Untuk apa aku menanti jika berakhir sendiri?

Kebodohan untuk bertanya pada hampa

Lebih bodoh lagi Karena masih menyimpan rasa

Mereka berkata cinta tak dapat memilih, namun apakah kita memang punya pilihan?

Mereka bilang hidup adalah pilihan, namun apakah pilihan itu berlaku pada kita?

Mereka bercerita bahwa cinta tak harus memiliki, lalu kenapa kita harus menyimpan cinta ini?

11.10.2016

When I’m with you, when we meet at the same place, when you see me.

Can we stop pretending?

Or do you already forget what we did?

Or am I thinking too much?

I am who I am, maybe I can hold back, maybe I still look okay.

But every time i feel you in the same air, I really want to jump into you and forget everything.

You are who you are, with all mysteries you keep, and the secrets you won’t share.

I don’t even know you anymore.

Do you still want me?

When I’m with you, when you get closer, when you talk.

Can you stop pretending? And see me in the eye?

Why are you ignoring me?

Are you scared? Are you afraid they’ll know about us?

Don’t worry, sweetheart, they already know it.

They just keep silent so we don’t get the trigger from tiger.

We are such a fool, and I’m just a fool that fall for you.

Maybe that time you just playing around, maybe that time we just fooling our self

And I got trapped inside, with the ending you leave me locked up

Watching you swirling here and there till I don’t know you anymore

Till I lost you in my shadow.

Bonded aren’t we?

But I’m not your family, I won’t ever be your family, I won’t call you my family.

Not in that way of what they want.

That’s just title that hurt me deep.

Too deep when you “use” that to leave me hanging

If you know this would be wrong, then why did you kiss me?

Why did you touch me?

If you leave me, then why did you leave that mark on me?

Am I wrong to love you?

With, And, Pretending

When I’m with you,

I too want to hold you, see your smile, and talk to you

But they will talk bad about you, they will get mad at us

I too still have dreams I want to make, even one of them is about you that I need to forget.

When I saw you walked beautifully,

I too want to jump into you and kiss you

But they will accuse you, give their pointer to you and we won’t see each other anymore

And I don’t want that, better like this,

Even I can’t touch you and hold you anymore, I still could see you.

Lonely night, I miss you, busy night, I miss you, in the crowd I still miss you.

I miss you too my love,

I too want to shout out my love for you, but they will take my voice and left me mute

I know they know about us, my love

That’s why I want to protect you from them

You said you don’t know me anymore, when the truth is I don’t know me either.

We are the fool that fall together, baby

But I’m not lucky to keep a hold on you

I’m trapped in grey and colors, that’s why you lost me in shadow

And I still could see you in the dark

Don’t wait for me, my love

Don’t wait, don’t waste it

I still remember that night

The warm and sweet we share, but they took my memory out about you

I never know if this is wrong

Because what I know is, I Love You.

From Prison